| Aug. 14th, 2008 @ 11:53 am OOC |
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Current Mood:  stressed
So, those of you who talk to me in real life have likely already gotten this story, but I figured we're like a little family here, so I can share it with you all.
While Laura was here, Kyla (the wifelet) and I were having a lot of arguments and stress and one day, I came into the room after one of our arguments to her slurring her words a little and hiding something under the covers. Upon closer inspection, she'd slit her wrist and was sitting and bleeding into a towel, hoping very much I'd leave her alone so she could simply die.
Needless to say, I was terrified and hurt, and we proceeded to argue and talk about THAT for four hours, until it was time for me to go to work. Thank GOD Laura was there, or I wouldn't have been able to leave, not trusting that even though she'd said she wouldn't hurt herself more.
Three days later, she did it again.
Now, add to that the financial troubles all three of us have been experiencing, work stress that is overwhelming me (a passive-aggressive co-worker who thinks that any time you mention something to her you're victimizing her... oh the joy. The bosses are discussing asking her to resign. This is Not A Good Thing as far as this means a lot of really long nights. OH, and she's actually a nice human being, she just has a shit way when she's working.) plus Laura's having to go back to the UK and all of us trying to figure out how to get her here permanently? Yeah.
So, I'm somehow keeping it together... a little. And sleeping... a little. And trudging through while trying not to blame my every illness on KYLA'S SUICIDE ATTEMPTS AND PROBLEMS AT WORK AND STRESS FROM MISSING LAURA AND-you get the point.
But yeah, I know I suck as a friend right now, and I'm utter SHIT as a RP partner right now, but I beg forgiveness and ask that you all have (just a little more) patience with me while I pull my life together.
~Nori
(PS: there IS some good news. I got a raise at work and continue to like my job even WITH the frustrating co-worker. Kyla started management training at her work today. It looks like with financial help, Laura can get into the college here in town. Mom's calmed down a lot and the house is clean, so that's a stress lifted. I have amazing friends. You know, it can't all be bad.) |
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